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Katie
03 October 2012 @ 06:01 pm
Currently Obsessing: Avengers

Favorite TV Shows:
1. Red Dwarf
2. 10th Kingdom
3. Andromeda
4. Sherlock Holmes (Granada)
5. Angel

Favorite Pairings:
1. Doyle/Cordelia
2. Watson/Holmes
3. Harper/Trance
4. Harper/Tyr

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Katie
18 March 2014 @ 06:34 pm
"It's only just a crush, it'll go away. It's just like all the others, it'll go away. Or maybe this is danger and you just don't know. Pray it all away but it continues to grow." -"Tear You Apart" lyrics

The song lyrics that fit my frame of mind lately. It's just a short-term hormonal imbalance....it's just a short-term hormonal imbalance.
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Katie
11 March 2014 @ 04:42 pm
I've been very up and very down lately, and it's driving me crazy. I'll be so high, then come crashing down and I think my antidepressant just isn't cutting it lately. I had once tried Prozac, but I hated how numb it made me, even for my obsessions. But I'm thinking lately that being numb would be better than the crashing, even if I have to give up the highs. I will miss the highs, but these downs are really getting to me.
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Katie
02 March 2014 @ 07:37 pm
I should be happy. I love my new house, my husband is mostly sweet, I did a good fulltime job interview, and I have friends and get to hang out and only have drama with one of them. I've got confidence that I'm pretty because guys like me. But when you have depression and anxiety, no matter how good life is, you see the world in tinted color.

I thought I was past this. :/
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Katie
22 February 2014 @ 12:29 pm
Still broke, living in our new house. I love the house, though the shower is broken where all the hot water is streaming down the faucet at the bottom. And I have a safe crush, like one would have on a teacher, that won't lead to horrible entanglements and drama and leave you not friends like before.
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Katie
12 February 2014 @ 10:11 am
I only have $80 in my bank account. I've never been that low and money has always been my safety blanket, so it's really scary. I really need a job, but I wasn't wanting any old job, I wanted the library. I'm having a housewarming party on Saturday, and I've only moved three things in, so I'm stressing about being done on time, and moving in 20° weather. :/
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Katie
07 February 2014 @ 10:30 pm
Because it's British strippers. 'Nuff said. <3
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Katie
30 January 2014 @ 04:03 pm
Hey all! I'm feeling much happier and at ease today. Finally got back on my pills, and it's like those black clouds that were stalking me just disappeared. Just wanted to say thanks for the support and still being friends with me. I know a depressed person can be a downer, but I appreciate a way to vent without fear. :)
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Katie
28 January 2014 @ 03:40 am
Reposted from ascendant_angel.

I am participating in this Pay it Forward initiative: the first five people who comment on this entry with "I'm in" will receive a surprise from me at some point in this calendar year. Anything from a book, a ticket, something home grown or made, a postcard, absolutely any surprise. There will be no warning and when the mood takes me and I find something that I believe would suit you and make you happy it will be sent. Copy and paste this to your own journal only if you wish to do so.

In other news, I'm messing around with GIMP and curves to make pretty pics for the first time. Fun. Excited for my Andromeda Valentine's Day exchange. And that stupid guy I was trying to be friends with/light flirt only texts me when he wants to convince me to have sex. Don't get an answer for days when he just wants to be "friends". Not going to be friends then, obviously. Just wish he hadn't made me feel special and attached then treat me like crap. :/ *le sigh*
 
 
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Katie
23 January 2014 @ 03:52 am
My mind has to have to have an obsession, apparently. Usually, 9 times out of 10, I obsess about a fandom. That 10th time, I "obsess" about a person. Oh, nothing stalkerish. But usually they're unobtainable and safe, and stay in my head. When I was younger, it was a teacher. It's not like I would actually want a relationship.

So, I'm not really into a fandom right now and I'm on that 10th time. I get ridiculously sad if he doesn't text me back, inside I'm very jealous when I see him with girls or talking about girls. He likes me and is known to be with married girls, so I have to keep my guard up. But I love flirting (it's my biggest vice), and I like him a lot. *le sigh* I can't be with him, so this obsession is just heartbreak and I wish I could get over this crush. The teacher I knew I wouldn't be with and I wouldn't want to.

I still haven't heard back for a job, I'm running out of money, and my anxiety over all this has rocketed, so that my nausea is back full force. I seriously didn't eat a thing yesterday.

Need hugs.
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