My mind has to have to have an obsession, apparently. Usually, 9 times out of 10, I obsess about a fandom. That 10th time, I "obsess" about a person. Oh, nothing stalkerish. But usually they're unobtainable and safe, and stay in my head. When I was younger, it was a teacher. It's not like I would actually want a relationship.
So, I'm not really into a fandom right now and I'm on that 10th time. I get ridiculously sad if he doesn't text me back, inside I'm very jealous when I see him with girls or talking about girls. He likes me and is known to be with married girls, so I have to keep my guard up. But I love flirting (it's my biggest vice), and I like him a lot. *le sigh* I can't be with him, so this obsession is just heartbreak and I wish I could get over this crush. The teacher I knew I wouldn't be with and I wouldn't want to.
I still haven't heard back for a job, I'm running out of money, and my anxiety over all this has rocketed, so that my nausea is back full force. I seriously didn't eat a thing yesterday.